We went in on Friday to discuss the results with the oncologist, and he said, the brain was not clear and in fact had some new spots. They were all small, but there were so many the targeted radiation–cyber knife is not an option, and there is no further radiation that can be done on the brain. This disqualifies me from the clinical trial. I also talked to the DR about swollen ankles and a tightness in my chest and asked if I could get my heart checked out. The EKG done the night before was good, but he ordered an Echo cardiogram. They found enough fluid a around my heart to suggest surgery to remove it, so as not to damage the heart. I went in to surgery Friday afternoon. I had a tube in my side and into my heart lining that was very painful that night. The nurse kept giving me IV morphine, sometimes more than once an hour. The DR took the tube out the next morning and we waited to see how I would do, but the pain was bad enough that I couldn’t get a full breath of air. (Besides all that morphine made me sleep all day.) My oxygen never went over 87 or 88. They won’t send you home without oxygen unless it’s over 90, so I came home with oxygen.
Ok, the good news is that I get to start early next week on one of the medicines in the clinical trial because it is FDA approved for this cancer. It does go directly after the cancer cells, and there is some indication that it even crosses the blood/brain barrier. So it is possible that the medicine could make the tumors in the brain shrink.I figure–why not!! So we are looking for that rather large miracle. If we can get rid of enough of them, maybe other direct target radiation is a possibility. I’m encouraged that we will finally begin treatment on the rest of my body, and will start feeling some better.
I will admit Friday was a hard day for my husband and kids, but there are always setbacks when you deal with serious disease. I still feel if we do all in our power, then the Lord will bless us! Tiffany Roush Mehner sent me a quote that applies to how I feel today.
“Just when all seems to be going right, challenges often come in multiple doses simultaneously. When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more (see Proverbs 3:11-12). He therefore gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for your everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain . . . .Your Father in Heaven and His Beloved Son loves you perfectly. They would not require you to experience a moment more of difficulty than is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or for that of those you love.” Richard G. Scott
We feel the stretching and have faith that we can still expect miracles. —Love to all–Melanie