Yesterday’s MRI and CT scan went well. Dr. Clark called us yesterday so we didn’t have to drive all the way to American Fork. He said the CT scan looked the same as the one in October, so the cancer hasn’t shrunk, but it’s not growing either! Dr. Clark is the radiation doctor, so was particularly interested in the MRI and the results of the gamma knife. He said there is still a lot of brain swelling, so it’s hard to tell what’s happening with the tumors–none are growing, but he thinks we will get a more accurate picture in another six weeks. So not the “You are cured” miracle I was hoping for, but definitely positive news that the disease is under control.
It’s New Year’s Eve and I’m grateful to be here with my family and loved ones. I love having a new year to “begin again.” A new year to correct at least some of my failings, and one of them will be to enjoy the moment, and not always be in such a hurry to get everything done at the expense of enjoying these last few years when we have our children still at home. I found a great poem from Ralph Spaulding Cushman:
I Will Not Hurry
I will not hurry through this day!
Lord I will listen by the way,
To humming bees and singing birds,
To speaking trees and friendly words;
And for the moment in between
Seek glimpses of Thy great Unseen.
I will not hurry through this day;
I will take time to think and pray,
I will look up into the sky,
Where fleecy clouds and swallows fly;
And somewhere in the day, maybe
I will catch whispers, Lord, from thee!